The Sweetness of Love

Thursday, May 29, 2014

if only

there are so many "if only's" in my mind.

• if only you'd tell me whats gng on truthfully.

• if only you'd rly regard me as your own dearly.

• if only you'd control me like you care alot. (not all th time tho')

• if only you'd be proud t have me.

• if only you'd say you love me when people qns's you.

• if only you'd be there for me physically when im down.

• if only you'd express t me how impt i am.

• if only you know what im always thinking.

• if only you know what im bothered about.

• if only you'd be honest w me t why you're unprepared.

• if only you'd go into details everytime you tell me smtg & not just summarize it.

etc; etc.

but its okay t me. im fine w it. i just prolly need somewhere t rant at as i dont confide my friends much anymore. they are alrdy bothered enough by their own situations in life. but i'll definitely be there for them when they need me such as drinking tgt.

you're back from overseas & im contented. but i just dont know how t express how overjoyed i am. but i love you, i seldom say "i love you" anymore bc prolly sometimes, i say t many times. i dont have t say "i love you" every night for you t know that i love you. im gng t stay just right here being myself hoping you'd reach out t me & get me. but nah, it'll never happen. bc knowing you, you keep everyth t yourself. & again, im fine w it. im just a little bothered by it bc i dont know what are you keeping from me. but im happy if you are.

i trust you when you say you love me. i trust you when you said you put me first before him. i trust you when you said you dont love him as much as you love me. i trust you when you said he's good but im better. i trust you in everyth you do. just that sometimes i dont appear that i trust you. but somewhere deep down in me, i do.

one day i hope i have th courage t tell you everyth but nah i dont. you'd probably ignore me again. i no longer dare t voice out my thgts. which is not a bad thing tho' bc at least i know im not bothering you from anyth anymore. just live your life freely. & i'll be happy t see that ☺️

Labels: Love is all about sacrifices


Me. Renytta Lagman people call me tata(: 26th december 1992 Shatec(Diploma Pastry Baking 411) am half pinoy! :D Twitter. Formspring. <a href="http://www.formspring.me/tatalagman">http://www.formspring.me/tatalagman</a> Exits. Lovable People \m/ LAGMANS AdelineLagman AngelettaLagman ITE Jieying Weiling Brandon Yanyi WSSS Pamela Shihui Jiaqi Jiening Eileen Stacia Esther Jayden AmandaCelestina AmandaPng AndySeah Ain Athirah Aloy AnsonOng Amira Acha Azeerah AdelToh AlinaHar Beatrice BeatriceTan BenChay Binni Connie Chingying Charmaine Clarisa ChowChin Charlene CharmaineSoh Christina Caimei Carene Keh Crystal Khoo Daphne Dhirah Doreen Dalton EverlynTan Enwei Eunice Emily Erwin Elizabeth Farah Fanghong Fiona FarahLiyana Fengying Ferlicia Ferline Farhannah Geraldine Gwendolyn Gwen Wong Guoli Huixian Haaziq Hweekhim Hamdi Indra Ivory Jeanie Jaliza Jiajia Junwei Judith Judy Joonkiat Joanna Jolynn Joey Joseph Jovan Jovin Jiayu JoanneLZH Kai Ting Karen Kimberly Kaiwen Kok Loong Kerri Kim KellyBei Lisa Limin Lehui Leepoh Leonard Tan Liting Lysa Minhui Marfie MelissaNg MichelleYeo MichelleLim Minyi Maisarah Mindy Noel Nianting NatalieLim NatalieTan NoelleLim Priscilla Peipei Pohching Qishan Qiujuan Rowenna Regine Rebecca Yong Sabrina Shermaine Samantha Szehui Shikin Side Sarah Sinyi Stella Soh Sophia Sebastian Shiqi ShafiqAshraf Syarifah Shah Indra SylviaLim Sherilyn Shana Seraphine Siti NurSyafiqah SylviaLiew Tingyew Terrence Tifanny Vivian Wanling Wanqian Warda Wenjie Tyler Xinhua Xxshihui Xiaomell Xuanwei Xiuyi Yanqi Yuanmei Yokchan Yuenlenq Yujuan Yunrui Yvonne Yiwei Youzhen Yuenyung Yuenman Zeila Zul Zhicheng Zaliha Zhenyi Zhihao Music. Past. May 2014 June 2014 September 2014 October 2014	Thursday, May 29, 2014 if only there are so many "if only's" in my mind. • if only you'd tell me whats gng on truthfully. • if only you'd rly regard me as your own dearly. • if only you'd control me like you care alot. (not all th time tho') • if only you'd be proud t have me. • if only you'd say you love me when people qns's you. • if only you'd be there for me physically when im down. • if only you'd express t me how impt i am. • if only you know what im always thinking. • if only you know what im bothered about. • if only you'd be honest w me t why you're unprepared. • if only you'd go into details everytime you tell me smtg & not just summarize it. etc; etc. but its okay t me. im fine w it. i just prolly need somewhere t rant at as i dont confide my friends much anymore. they are alrdy bothered enough by their own situations in life. but i'll definitely be there for them when they need me such as drinking tgt. you're back from overseas & im contented. but i just dont know how t express how overjoyed i am. but i love you, i seldom say "i love you" anymore bc prolly sometimes, i say t many times. i dont have t say "i love you" every night for you t know that i love you. im gng t stay just right here being myself hoping you'd reach out t me & get me. but nah, it'll never happen. bc knowing you, you keep everyth t yourself. & again, im fine w it. im just a little bothered by it bc i dont know what are you keeping from me. but im happy if you are. i trust you when you say you love me. i trust you when you said you put me first before him. i trust you when you said you dont love him as much as you love me. i trust you when you said he's good but im better. i trust you in everyth you do. just that sometimes i dont appear that i trust you. but somewhere deep down in me, i do. one day i hope i have th courage t tell you everyth but nah i dont. you'd probably ignore me again. i no longer dare t voice out my thgts. which is not a bad thing tho' bc at least i know im not bothering you from anyth anymore. just live your life freely. & i'll be happy t see that ☺️ Labels: Love is all about sacrifices 10:12 PM ·